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Fifteen minutes had wasted bu from sitting here,
struggling to find the right words to fill this page up with.
I'm stuck with these voices--but, looking upside down, they look like they are stuck to me, getting between the way of my thoughts and the heart.
I can't find a clarion picture above the clear foggy clouds,
blurring the sun away when I am already vogued.
I feel sweltered,
But in a way where it's only a symptom to the Waverly, deep- thoughts that continues to dwelt.
The pulsating veins that declares to rise,
but also cease from it's wave.
I close my eyes
trying to accept the art of letting go--
and starting over,
but it has already contradicted from seconds before start.
I toss back my mind of intervene , where I am already amidst into a room
where not only darkness shines,
but also where darkness whines,
when I fold back the vines.

sister act 2. no. 2

Personally Love this song with all my heart.


alots been going on tonight..
I got back home at One AM with my mother, talking -- but i'll write more about it later. :)

Sister Act 2.

Just one of those movies that you can watch over and over without getting sick of.

Sunday. 5.17

So today, I took some time organizing my characters, plots, complex, chapters--blah, blah, blah. Yeap, that's like it. Haha. Uh I have school tomorrow, save me?

Anyways, I'm sitting here, thinking weather to eat this sweet-potato bread. (Sounds so odd when I translate these names in English, haha.) Looks good, but I'm not even hungry. Stop seducing me!! On my computer screen, it's my manuscript for "The Fifteen Year Old Naive" :)) Be patient! hehehe.

Here are some random pictures I took today.

Broken free.

For once,

When I breathed, it didn't burn.

When I sang, I heard more than one melody

When I laughed, I exhaled all the misery

I've never felt so much victory

beating off so much poultry

Gesture gently screeching across my face

like a feather being needled short down across my face

The actual sound of life

and the harmony over the wet footsteps

and the rhythm that I've never knew of,

suddenly beating from the center of my soul

No chains, no pains of bolts around my souls,

Now sovereign

not domestic

over my own fouls.

I close my eyes and let the world take me over,

for now, wherever it takes me

I will buoyantly let me follow...

Think.

You know when you let something go

You think that it will never come back.

You believe when people discriminates the life you have brought to the opened space

You think that you should just dishevel the life

and let it drop away between your feet.

But when people point that your right

what do you think?

When people admits and approves of their mistakes.

do you forgive?

Song

This is a good song.
Well, I'm going to go write.

♥

So..

Right now, I'm in the middle where I'm so damn confused with everything. UNFORTUNATELY, unbelievable, I've given up with my novel---not the writing process, just the story. A few days ago, I found myself just uncomfortably forcing myself to relate with this story-- I know-- WHY?! Waiting my precious time on the computer every night just for it to end like this! But, through my second novel (which was the one I was working on) I've learned something. Don't rush, and enjoy. I've always tried to squeeze the little story out of my head and I've learned that it shouldn't be that way. I'm disappointed in myself, probably as you are but, I'm going to start writing things that first impresses me than others. I've been looking far too over other's thought that I forgot what I wanted to write about. Ah, I wish I knew this a bit earlier... earlier before I started on Chapter Twelve! Haha,

But, what the heck. I have all the time in the world... There is no need to rush. This time, it will be about what I believe in and what I see. Not what others want or want to see.
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Anyways, My mom came back from work, telling me about this ENGLISH WRITING CONTEST here in Korea on the NEWSPAPER! She's going to find more about it tomorrow for me. I'm so excited.

You know, when i see opportunities like this, it makes me think that God has sent these offers straight down from heaven. Ah, if it is. Thank you God. (:
I will deff write more about it tomorrow.

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Oh yeah, and...
right now, my booty hurts.
From kickboxing, I got my ass kicked by a 7th grader!!! Woah, haha but it was fun. I love it.

Crap, I'm running out of words to type...help?!

hehe.
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I was bored and my hair was looking soooooo hot this evening.

and my new Homer Simpson's shirt!
(I love the Simpson's. I grew up with that show!) (

TIRED

Today, i sat before my computer since 12 at noon, all the way till 1:25 am.- continuously.
I promised myself that i would move on to my novel but i didn't until it was 10. So now, i've just got a chapter finished, working on my next (: Yay. It's getting dramatic, mentally. You just have to get to know Taylor. Maybe I'll post a little bit about her later.
So now, its been about three hours since i've been writing without stopping- no i lied. Just without leaving my thoughts-

I Drank 2 cups of coffee today ( my mom wasn't home :) )
two slices of bread (with coffee)
Yep, i ate Brunch and dinner in front of this bigass screen where it's teasing me with its
'largeness.' my eyes are so busy from running side to side. haha.


I am planning on staying up today until the the sun greets me good night.
HAHA i can hear my mom's snore from the other room x)
but i am tired, but i have to beat it! This is my future! haha.
Ah, my eyes are like half dead, i swear.
anyways. I hope you guys all have a great weekend and, I'll post more later!

++++ I don't know if this all made sense lol! I'm so tired and im saving my energy for my novel.
my eyes are like literally closed.
I probably have alot of typos... bleh, who cares !

Everyday

Everyday

my day is like a chorus of a song.

Every single day,

it's just like repeating those chorus and never hitting the end.

days

a few days ago during gym class, we played softball and we were learning how to catch.

I had this familiar feeling as if Ive already done this before, and i was right. The very second the gloves touched my hand, my mind swung back all the way back to elementary school in 4Th grade- This feeling was irrevocably welcoming. I remember the old feeling just as if it was yesterday. I remember running across the field with everyone else trying to catch the ball- but when my mind swung back in place, it was different. Effortless, different, incomparable. i HATED seeing those girls standing dumb like their feet were glued to the ground.

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Ah, I have a really bad sore throat. Well, it isn't THAT bad, but it just hurts. I think i need to goggle salt water thingy again--

Ah, today is Sunday- here and uh it sucks because i have school tomorrow.

Well today, I'm going to take advantage of my free time and seriously catch up with my novel.

I've been falling heck back- because of school.

Yup, i think that's what I'm going to do today.

Stay in front of the screen all day, with CUPS of coffee by my side since my mom isn't here. :) haha.