Sunday, September 26, 2010

Jus this one time..


I've waited so long for a miracle..
An escape.. a solution.. an exit,
but it feels now ,that I am getting warmer..
I'm still 16, and I still don't know whats up..
Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in the wrong body..
Sometimes I feel too young,
and sometimes I feel like I'm rushing into life, and again,
I'm only 16.
I want things done and I want things clear,
So the next time I find a road, I'll know where to go.
I'm done with seeing myself lost on the intersection..
I'm tired of the circles and I'm tired of the dark thats been keeping me to stop and wait..and to think. It's been wasting too much of my time..
I don't know what I'll see anymore when I look out outside..
I don't know if this is the right decision,
But I know this isn't the wrong.
Yes, this is what I want
But is it what I need? Or is this where I'm supposed to head?
Talking it over with my friends doesn't solve anything anymore.
But when I keep it buried inside, at times I feel like I'm going to explode..
Maybe because I know that neither of them will completely understand me..
What I'm analyzing or what I'm picturing..
Please understand that, I need this time for me, and not just for you.. Just this time,
I need someone to listen
& someone to read my heart
& my thoughts..
& scan the pictures into their mind..
& think me over like I'm their shoes..
asking, what would you have done if you where me..
But, Perhaps I am asking for too much...?

5 comments:

Silke said...

Oh, you write so beautifully!! Thank you for visiting my blog and commenting on my knitting... You know, YouTube has wonderful videos that can teach you how to knit. I've learned a few more techniques that way. I'll be back to visit and read your gorgeous words. :-) Silke

Heather said...

oh wow...you have so much talent here. wonderful way with words...you have a beautiful road of life ahead of you.....enjoy the journey...i.m following with you!
xxoo

et said...

You're doing well with your writing Hailey.. may be taking a long break made you better at this! I don't think you're too naive any more. Things do change. New winds and new roads come. And, of course, there do exist the kind of people who will understand you, almost completely.. ^_^

♫♪♥Lonely Dreamer♥♪♫ said...

I love the way you write, the way you express is so easy to relate to. Every word you wrote struck me :)
I love your blog !!! ♥

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