Present, future

Tomorrow
I would like to wake up on a king size bed
wrapped around in my blankets with breakfast in bed.
I want to be able to look outside from my room and see the oceans and the mountains
I want to see the sun high in the sky
being the first to greet me hi
I want the clouds to be my curtains
and the birds to be my eyes
I want to be able to walk out onto my balcony
and reach out to the sky
I want to see people laying on the sand
hearing there laughter's sounding like chants
In the afternoon i would like to go out with my girlfriends
and have a long chat
just about the life's that we used to have.
Knowing that
all that tears has finally paid off
and all that sweat has finally dried off
I want my past to be something I can look back to,
not something that I can relate to.
It's so hard for me to be who I am
when I'm so far from home
in the other side of land
But I really have no choice, do I?
All i can do is accept it and go on
which is really sad
But in the future
my present will be the past
that I KNOW I can look back on
and a past that I wont be able to compare from now
because I know I'll be living the life
that I've once dreamt of in the past
which will me my present
in the future from now on.