++friends

Sometimes I doubt the friends I have. Like tonight. Why?..

Maybe because I know they aren't there for me enough,

and that they will always choose guys over 'friends' = me.

Really? Is that all I get in return? For always having their back and being like their older sister?

For solving every problem I can when I had my own problems to solve?

I am always the one to lecture them. It's getting tiring now.

You know I held back a year right? So I'm bascially living & learning around 'kids' a year older than me. I never thought 1 year would really make that big a difference, but it's really made a huge difference.

& Now I feel like I'm watching over little babies.