++10days

No matter which direction I decide to walk through,
On every step I'll take a breath,
On every trip I'll say 'It's ok'
So, now I can follow the
night stars out of my scars,
So, now I can see the full moon blooming so loose...
I say 17, and swallow down hard and pray,
And wait for my way,
until the moon shines again.
-Yes, life is a beautiful struggle.

(Idk if that made sense but I'm feeling kind of 'impossible' right now. aha funny..)

So now I have 10days,,( WOW? I just counted the dates,) before I go to Seoul.(Just got the goosbumps) You know, I have been thinking about it every day since I've planed the idea of going in the first place, and now just thinking about the 10 days I have left.. It's kind of frightning. I need to get my plans planned out straight. Stiff. You know, It may not be the smartest decision to go down there to work- and to 'live the life', but... When I think about my past and place them like lost puzzles with theses new pieces-- It just all starts to make sense. It really does, like the purpose of all of this chaotic years-;; I may, one day put all the pieces together, but in the end- I doubt even I, will understand the picture in that very second. What I'm saying is, I guess you just have to wait to see what happens.. Don't believe everything you see; & don't expect anything too quickly; you will always end up dissapointed. Like me.

xoxo.