I'm constantly having theses misconceptions of my life. I feel so induvisual and so independent like I already have the access to life- where everything is possible if I'd just go. And then I take a deep breath that reminds me that I'm only almost 17... Honestly, I don't mind being almost 17. I think it would irratate me more if I was 20 and living the way like I am now. I guess I'm afraid that if it isn't now, then it will never be.. Maybe it's because I've already lost so many chances in the past, and that I'm just scared that all those chance and oppurtunities are gone..Like I'm going to ever get them back..