Thursday, July 23, 2009

My new favorite name

So I came across this subject yesterday when I was searching for a name for my new novelic character. But before that, I came up with some of the characteristics this character was going to have, which where;

-Out spoken

And then in sudden gust-- Willow!
And that's how I got my favorite name/and Character's name.
And then I searched pictures of Willows and,
It kind of all made sense with my made up character and the Willow. I think they would get along together.
Ha ha Cheesy.

A few days ago I found a small diary that I used to write in (for like only 6 days). I found it under my bed, along with the gangster dust bunnies, probably bullying a little dead mosquito or something.

See the thing I love about 'past objects' are the history that trails along with it. And I can re-imagine back to the time when I was sitting on my bed, sobbing in tears perhaps depressed in the little old one bedroom 'house'... BUUUUUUUUUUTTTTT lets not go there.
I'm happy for what I have now and for what I have went through. Emotions seems to change after time.

I didn't write much in here but there were things written in here that were --- Nightly prayers, to God.

(There is no written date)
But there were 12 pages ( the diary is small)
of saying "God Please let me go back to America"
It's devastating to re-read back on, because I still do and it's been a quite successful time since I've felt like that.

Dear God, Please give me strength to study. please have faith in me through my dream. I'm not quiting this time. :)
- ( yes, there was a smiley face. A big one too )

Yeap and that's like all.
Oh and if you flip a couple of pages, there are little quotes written sloppy on there, but it did kind of snooze me back up.

"Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way"

"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood."

"Courage is resistance to fear,
Mastery of fear,
not absence of fear.
"Give me liberty, or give me death
Justice delayed is justice denied"


Nic. said...

I like the first picture on he sidebar. The one with someone's shadow...
Yea, this has nothing to do with your post. But I still like it.

Fiducia said...

Awwww.... so sweet!

It just makes me reel myself back to my past! Awesome..:)

Love the innocence in all your sentences.. beautiful!

Wishing you the embrace your dreams soon... soon to New York!

Keep writing..:)

Americanising Desi said...

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww innocence is the attire no one can steal from you :)