'I will be'

"I will be strong on my own, I will see the rain I will find my way I will keep traveling this road, Till I finally reach my dream Till I'm living and I'm breathing, My destiny."

-'I will be' Christina Aguilera

Forever young.

I was so inspired to these Lyrics, I just had to make this. 'Young forever'- Jay-z feat. Mr. Hudson.

hm.. no poem.

I guess when everything breaks into tiny pieces,

Like magnets- they haul back,

You just don't know it..

You know what I wish the most? Just my entire family gathered; having ONE dinner together at home, giggling and laughing sitting infront of the television. Having my first;last; supper with them. I want to hear their stories about their lifes and their days. I want to meet my cousins: the ones I've sketched by only a few seconds at my father's funeral.. I want to sit next to my brother-and just for that moment, I want that moment to be dedicated for him, and I. I want, one first;and last attention-I want to hear every stories about my father and my brother- and about me when I was just only a few months old.. Just thinking about it, I'm already feeling like I'm flying beneath the clouds..

I don't know. This post is pretty random, but honestly, this is all I wish for right now. :)

I got a call from my brother earlier today after school. He said that it's going to hard to come over here at my place, but he'd be glad to have me over there at Seoul. Another exciting 4 hour drive- but I don't mind. Maybe because it's Him.

Ok, it's a secret, but I'll only share it on here. My brother is contracting with an music record my next year... Long story short.

He has a small stage at a hotel (VIP) next month, and guess with who...BEYONCE! I'm not making it up. I swear. He'll sing a few songs of his own, and some of Craig David, and a duet with Beyonce, so he says. It's really exciting in a way.. He's even wrote songs for frankie J. Haha again, long story short.

So when I go down to Seoul after school on Friday, I'll be in his studio all night- writing and working on songs with him. It'll be amazing. I'll have pictures up then!

x

another mistake?..

Music used to be my cure

but now, how can I be so sure

When now there isn't anything to hold,

but now, just allow my two hands to fold,

Where there's no where to hide,

and no where to cry,

where can I go to side..

When my breathe overtakes me

and lose balance of my plans..

Now I am thinking,

If this was another laspe of I, picturing beyond the present.. again..

-I got out of school at 12 today.. Today I just didn't feel it. Didn't feel it.. Just didn't..

I don't know why I'm so upset.. I don't know why I'm so worried.. When it was just yesterday when I told myself that I trusted in God for the plans of my life..