'LIL WAYNE' & life.

"I'm a gangster- I don't take nothing from no one, I do what I wanna do.
& I'm gonna do that till the day I die and If I just can't do that, then
I'll just die."

"I'm not an example for people how to live their life, I never in my
life would ever said I'd be an example how to live their lifes,
If you need an example for how to live , they you just
shouldn't been born."
-Lil wayne.

I personally love the second quote he said.

Ok, so I am going to Seoul on Saturday and honestly I don't know what's going to happen right now- my plans may not go the way it planned but it'll be ok..

I slept over my friends house last night, and honestly, we did have a little alcohol in our system. I realized a few things last night from having a deep conversation from my good friends, perhaps maybe my soulmate..

I asked her, if she could have 3 wishes to wish anything in the world, what would it be, and now, I ask this to all of my friends when I feel like I am close enough to trust this person. This is the question to my heart, and their answers are the keys. I do judge from that moment on.. I don't know, that's just me.

And she said, 1st. She would wish that her parents would live long and heathly for the rest of their lives. And to speak the truth, my friend hasn't always been the 'right daughter' or the 'smart-making-choices' kind of person. Untill now. She would always tell me that she regrets everything, her past and so much on, and yes she was rebellious before I got to know her. There are times that we'd get so deep that she would start crying when she talks which breaks me because she keeps saying that she is ashamed, but honestly I am greatful. I'd tell her that 'If it wasn't for the past, YOU wouldn't be here right now, and nor would I on your side'. My heart makes the biggest smile in the shadowed room, for a very short second I felt like I have already succeed.

Last night, well midnight, I told her the things I wanted to be and the changes I wanted to see. I told her a little about Oprah Winfrey and she was shocked because I wanted to be like her. And then a few minutes later after telling her want I wanted from this world and this life, and the hands I wanted to reach out to from my experience from a young-unfair childhood, and life that's continuing now, She looked in my eyes and said, "You know what? You can do it. I can see it in you. I know you will succeed. You will, because whatever you do- your directions will only lead you to your dreams. I believe in you." She repeated that a couple of time (tounge-twisted because we were a bit drunk, lol) This friend is the only friend that I can drink with any night and be like, thats whats up. Like, the kind of friend that EVERYONE in the world needs. I can just sit with her through the day and just run my heart out- shes like a talking diary. I love her for that, nor i'm going to loose her.

Anyways. I think that was kind of long. haha. ah, well my books arrived earlier ( ordered some of them last week because I felt like I haven't read for so long).

They were highly recommended by few of my favorite authors, and people. :)

1. If I stay - Gayle Forman.

2. Winter girls - Laurie Halse Anderson

3. Thirteen reasons why - Jay asher

4. Chelsea Chelsea Bang Bang -Chelsea Handler. ( my favorite T.v show host. shes hilarious. I love outspoken people- and shes a billion miles over that. :)

( i have this thing of reading 'only' bestselling books, I don't know why.. Haha so if you have any great books, please comment!!)