long night

I think this is the longest night I haven't had in a while.
I've been sitting on the edge of my bed, thinking for over an hour....
of the things i wanted,
the things i needed,
the things i hated,
the things i loved---
and i realized, there was no end
so i shook myself up- reminding myself to step out of it,
i was falling too deep...
And then I got back on here, trying to write about the specific things of each topic- but i just couldn't. I can't.
I've already deleted a whole paragraph of the things i was thinking about, labeled under, 'wanted,' when i was thinking back on my bed But, it was getting too damn long- eternally..
Ah, crap.
What a life.