Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Woke up

Jesus take the wheel
take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I am on
Jesus take the wheel..
It's 2:18AM and I am wide awake. My mom woken me, and I am pissed. Like overly irratatited by everything- every sound, every movement. Or maybe just hers..
I hate it when people wake me up, especially her.
Reminds me,
Who is dumb enough to enter the room with a fucking vacum, in the early morning when you see a fucking breathing being sleeping on the fucking bed? Seriously, you tell me I'm fucking dumb and shit- but, seriously, speak for yourself..
And then, like if she doesn't vacum, then it's either leaving my door room cracked opend (which I hate the most-I hate being my room door open. Period) and having the telvision so loud that it's even gagging on it's own words? It's so annoying- who does that, serious.
Well, it's not like im surprised, she doesn't have any respect for me whatsoever. Like she says, 'I'm too young..'
Too young for respect.
Omg, I'm like just seriously pissing myself off even more- I need to stop and watch a movie or something.


Carrie Burtt said...

I promise that this to shall pass....dear Hailey...you are at an age that is so utterly difficult, because you are almost grown and have many things that people and this world expect of you, yet you are still a child to your mom....to some degree this never changes in a mother's eyes, but letting our children grow up is something we must do for our children's sake....have you tried telling her how you feel? Sometimes when people will not listen to what I am trying to tell them...i have found that writing a letter can be helpful. I hope that your day goes better, and that you get a chance to talk to your mom about how you feel. Jesus take the wheel is something we all need to say daily to ourselves...your heart is on the right track....hope you have a good day anyway. :-)

Lu Ann said...

Haily, Im so sorry you went through this aweful night... you know? parents usually do that, but after all, they´re just as young as us... because nobody told them how to treat us, they make many mistakes just as we do, but, you know, it´s more easily to deal with one self than with others...
But what Im truly glad and I bet you already know what Im about to say is that you are askinf Him, Jesus, the lord of your life as I expect Him to be, to take control of the wheel. Just as Carrie said, it is something we must tell ourselves every single day.
Just this morning I was reading a post which I will recomend you about this, that being more like Him is a life journey, hard and tough, but which brings peace to our hearts.
Donpt give up Haily... the sea is inmense, but our eyes are placed in Him and you are not alone, there are a lot of other ships like ours sailing in the same sea to the same shore.

:) He´s with you, I´ll pray for you.


"Matthew 11:30 (New International Version)

For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.""

Hope said...

Hi there,

continue on, my dear. We must all do that for the reward at the end is unbelievably worth it. I can't say more than what Carrie and Lu Ann had said. talk and if that doesn't work then write.

Jesus take the wheel- let Him do it. It's called faith. Know that you are not alone. There is always someone that will accept your hand. Just reach and continue to do so until someone grabs it.

Hailey~ thank you for visiting my blog and for following me.

Take care