Tuesday, March 10, 2009

my mind.


I can say that, that I'm pretty damn proud of myself. 2009 has started as a great- brand new, fresh off the air- perfect, with the cherry on the top. Frequently, I've been WANTING to study. It's so weird. I literally LISTEN in my classes, taking ALL the notes- no matter how much i don't comprehend with the words. The language- my language that i currently know as my second- is harder that i thought- but the pain is brutally, pleasurable.
I really don't regret- but I imagine, what my life would have been like if i did stay in America- or if I've never went to America. How good i would be in school and in social life. Who I would have become, and what i would have wanted- because from those two different worlds, i am positive that there will be No similar wantings at all.
Goodness, i don't know anything about college- not even sure what a GPA thingy is- or how much 'important' it is- I don't even know what you're supposed to do for SAT, i don't even know how to do what I'm supposed to do, if that makes sense-
The 'Americanized' Hailey, is starting to fade...
It's so funny that I'm dreaming to go to Yale University- but I'm ridiculous, with my grades- uh, i don't even want to go there.
I will post up my report card up here sometime when i get it- i swear, you will spit on your screen.
But I'm getting there. I know it isn't much difference of when i DO study or don't- but when i do, i feel good, even though i know i didn't learn anything, just having that feeling of power with the pen knotted into my fingers- i feel like queen, simply underlining just any words I read.
I don't know what the point of this blog is really-hahaha but,- uh i don't know. My mind is taking over- this is what's going on in my head, right this second.
aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
My eyes hurt. The compute monitor is HUGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
23 inches wide.
that's freakin crazy
and I'm like 2 in a half feet away from it.
Ha ha.
Ah, i don't know what else to type.
My head is just blanking out.
I ran out of words.
The end
:)

2 comments:

Audrey said...

You crack me up!
How do you like your new HUGE computer? Is it a touch screen?
xoxoxo

Renee said...

I love Hailey.

You totally must have suffered culture shock when you left the states.

xoxox